I'm so confused right now that the only option I had was to call off anything and everything with any non-relative whom I love, which comes down to two people. It's not fair to either of them to continue, especially if I'm going to be hurting so bad and still so confused.
instead of pondering on all this tonight, I went and played pool with my friend Petr. It was nice not to think about my insides being out for all of two hours.
Now I'm messing with my previous post and seriously contemplating bedtime. Last night was easily the most difficult night I've had just because at one point I think I was teetering on the brink to true insanity.
Eh. I'm feeling relieved that I can stop thinking about love for awhile. Maybe after it cools down a bit, I'll be able to put the pieces where they should be, instead of where they have been (which is where they shouldn't have been).
Posted by iain at July 24, 2006 11:10 PM